Job interviews & first dates = equally uncomfortable

 

Job interviews & first date = equally uncomfortable



   Job interviews reminds me of those times,when I was still dating ( I quit that " excitement" years ago, as I have come to notice, that I enjoy my solitude  ) .
Having that first date with someone you don't really know, is equally awkward situation...
There you are - heart pumping, hands sweating, stuttering something , trying not to vomit .....

Both are the kind of situations, where  you are  supposed to give " a pleasant and positive picture " of yourself .
And the only thought ,that comes to my  mind on those situations is:
" where is the exit and how fast can I run".

      The moment on job interviews -  when I am asked :" why should we hire you", and then I am supposed to give all those superlatives why I am the best , is a nightmare  ...
I have absolutely  no idea, why anyone should hire me...I am ordinary , there is nothing that special about me , that stands out ...
I show up in time, do my job, take people as they are , and being equally polite to everyone , then I go home...no drama, no fuss..just do my thing and that is it.

   
    I have always wondered those people, who finds the first dates thrilling and fun , and who almost gets hooked on that feeling itself.
I hated it - I just wanted to have a time machine and fast-forward to the moment, when my companion knew how I wanted my morning coffee - with a smile and a comfortable silence.

  I just find those situations tedious and pretentious , whether it is that first date or the job interview...
It lacks the natural flow, and all the expectations and the silent judging fills the air.
The sheer amount of questions makes you feel, that you are interrogated by FBI and CIA .

     If I could just put my apron on and go on my merry ways , doing the job that I know and not losing myself while doing it.

    Putting the dating-life on my rear mirror and staying single is an option , since being in a relationship is not mandatory .

However, being able to support myself financially and pay my rent etc is not an option - it is essential for survival - therefor it means, that I still have to stay on this circus and keep on performing - show must go on.

(Photos © Anneli Laulumaa)